To soon to tell

Dr appointment came and we saw a sack w/nothing in it. They did locate a cyst (which I am told is very normal). I maybe only 5 weeks pregnant or this wasn't my time to have a baby.... Dr says "You are in limbo right now."

I will know more in 48 hours I guess when they recheck my hormone levels.

Is This Real?

Ever since I can remember, I have wanted to be a mother. I was never exceptional in school, although I did alright, I never had a exciting job, and most of the men I dated were less than savory characters. The one constant - the one true dream - was to have a child of my own. Someone I could love unconditionally and someone I could help become, well become whatever they dreamed.

I am a worrier by nature. There were nights I sat up worrying that I would never have a house, a career, a husband, or a child. I wish that I could have just listened to my mother when she told me time and time again "It will happen when its supposed to happen." She, as always, was so right! Life has been such an emotional roller coaster for me, but at this point in time, there is only 1 thing in my life I wish was different and that is to still have my dad here with us. He is missed everyday and I hope that he is able to look down on this world and see how happy his children are.



I have a wonderful family, the best mother that anyone could have, a man that would do anything and everything for me. and now I am so very proud to say I am carrying his child.



If this is a dream I hope I never wake up.

And it Keeps Getting Better

We bought a king size bed today!! I am so excited. It will be delivered next Saturday and all I can say is that it can't get here fast enough!! Thanks mom!